you want to be My sissy but you do things that make Me believe otherwise. you go through phases of being a complete whore, fucking your holes as often and as hard as you can. Now, I've already told you to take your time with your feminine side if you want Her to come out and play. you just can't help yourself though, and that's what leads to your purging. How many times have you been ashamed enough to throw out collections of sissy toys, props and clothing? you try to delete any evidence of mind bending sissy training you've purchased and downloaded but here you are, trying for the hundredth time.
I don't want a stupid horny man who dresses up as a woman when HE chooses. I want a sissy and she will be obedient and feminine at all times. So, instead of instructing you to masturbate and worship cock with your faggot pussy tonight, you'll sit with your sissy side and let her know how much you appreciate her. you will accept Her. you'll apologize for throwing out all of her belongings. you'll look her in the eyes as you tell her that she knows what's best for you. Stop fighting it, she's always here. you need her and I want her.